Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Rumor Rampage

There are still lots and lots of things going on in my mind. Due to the fact that people are usually making fun of me and backstabbing me. They always do that and enjoy it and they don't even know what they were doing. I also hear rumors about me that they think I'm a priest or work on for church, to tell you the truth I'm not that religious person. They make rumors that I have STD, AIDS, or any sickness that can infect other people. Oh yeah, and they're serious doing that.

As of this summer I know there are still lots of these wicked things going on. I'm 19 years old and most people think I'm 25 - 30 years of age. What the hell is wrong with the world? I think they're the ones who are insane. As long the thing is important to me is, I'm serious in studying practicing in drawing, painting, and graphic softwares 'cause it is what I can use at work.

I've been sick of these rumor mouth things but one day I'll fight back.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

One Hot Post

As I have been busy these past few days, it's because I've been doing some studying and it caused me some headache. The exams that I took, to tell you, is really difficult. I studied the whole thing and it was really messy in my room. My things were scattered all around, my room just got dirt all over. There are these assignments that I had to do. Man, it is hard to be a student.

You can't see what will happen in the next day, nobody really knows. You will never know what will be the outcome of your actions. Trying hard to improve my studying skills but as it turned out I have limitations as I am not a genius. Everybody has his own limitations and there is also a time to relax. Aside from studying lessons from our subject that I took this summer, I also do sketches at home just practicing to improve my skills.

Most of my posts are journals, maybe I can't post much on other categories. Man it is hot this summer. Hope it gets cool this 1st semester in the start of classes. I'll be reviewing HTML after these freaky busy days.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Just a post for today

I'm really exhausted of doing extracurricular activities at home. I am also having summer class at college. I usually practice doing sketches here at home rather than at school 'cause it's embarrassing. I only seldom let other people see how I sketch and to tell them, I'm a shy type. That was before but now, maybe I'm much more confident than before. I'm trying to build up my skills even more. If I working as a CG artist, well in this kind of industry they work solo. CG artists don't have a crew actually 'cause they are not the same as actors or actresses. They don't have any managers as long as they're solo. They either work in a studio or work as freelancers. I'd rather play both being a studio member and if I don't have an offer in a studio then better work freelance.

People think mostly than I'm crazy or a mad man due to the fact that I only go from home to school most of my everyday life. It's a lifestyle that I have and as I always tell everyone I don't have a nightlife in clubs but stay at home to browse the web or read books. I don't even have vices like drinking beer or any hard liquor, smoking, I don't even go to night clubs, but the thing I do is do researches on topics that I can use on work. I don't even have a manager and I work solo and it's much better that way. Life has gotten even harder, I can't even manage to eat lunch here at home and I have to eat lunch at school.

I still have so many rumors going around at school but I can only catch small details through my ears. No one even dares to tell me and I'm not that daring to ask. Some even tell me, that I have become gay, out-of-school youth, a beer belly, a maniac, a crazy person, someone who has just gone out of the mental institution, a pet of someone else, use my name such as "sugo ni Robin, ingon si Robin", and many more versions of that. I've been enduring these things being used and I have to endure it. Most people even believe that and that's what rumors are about mostly they're lies to destroy someone.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Decipher The Master Plan

I know that I've been busy these days doing sketches and stuff that make me improve my skills during these days. I did really make a good choice to practice and it has just been a month or so to take me the next level in art.

I've been doing on and off studies regarding color combination, drawing the human anatomy in both males and females. I need to master this as this will be used in work. I've been finding a job as a CG artist as a digital painter, line artist, conceptual artist or any visual art it may be.

In my Web Design study I think it will take me about months or about a year or so to master it. I know some people are making fun of me and their trying to make other people think that I'm gay or so that is what they think. I'm also trying to tell you that it won't work. I'm a straight guy and my body tells me to find a woman.

I know that there are many struggles in life that I have to encounter and it's going to be a very long way. I know what's going on and I have a strong feeling about it. The Journal post may not be every Sundays but maybe many times a week.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


Fame is really a great thing to hear aside from aside from it being carried by most commonly known people as celebrities. These celebrities are praised being talented and their talent is widely known to the public. Most commonly known talents are actors, actresses, models or any other TV personality. Behind those praises...lies darkness.

Well some people really don't praise these popularly known people. Some or most people even use their names for hideous crimes, call them names that hurt their feelings, spread rumors that are not even true which these things destroy their lives. They earn money for a living being famous but behind these things they carry such burden, mostly are problems.

They may be defined as haters. I know why you are thinking I entitled this post as fame. Haters are those people who take in action those criminal acts. They even enjoy doing it without even knowing they could be sent to prison. Life has its own ways and we can't change the fact that it is going to be like that.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Busy days never go away

Well, It's early morning that I'm going to make this post and here it is. Today is the start of summer classes and but before that I just want to summarize the happenings that occured during these past few days. I was supposed to make a blog post about myself every sundays as a journal but as yesterday somebody was using the PC so I did it this morning.

I can only remember small details in the past so I'm going to start obtaining my official study load which I went to school but sadly the registrar said it was not available. So I just stayed at the school lobby for quiet some time to rest and enjoy the fun with Argie which is a friend of mine and so and talked to friends. I was really enjoying the company of girls that were near us. So and after that we ate lunch at a carenderia which at that time it was the only place for us to eat. After that I went home to finish a part of my work.

On the second time me and my mom together with my nephew Andre, we went to SM to buy art materials and books for me to learn more about painting. I was reading the books about acrylics painting and how to draw the human figure which is a complete guide. I really enjoyed the books and gained knowledge of the techniques and what materials to use in painting.

I really wanted to loose weight and do some exercises and diets but it's hard due to a busy schedule. I really wanted to have a nice looking body physique and I'll do my best to obtain it. Guess I all have to work hard.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Behind Beauty

I never imagined that models would trip off on the runway despite how experienced they were in this industry and they really do look funny. I really admire them even though they get messed up in public and that's why I really like to watch models do their catwalk.They look sexy in their outfits and give a good impression to the audience.

Female models have difficulty in walking on the runway due to the shoes or sandals that they are wearing. High heels may cause danger to them and may affect their performance on the show. Some fashion designs are even weird and maybe because it's art and the designers might want to show it off. As I was watching the video, I am really concerned of the models 'cause they might get hurt or get scolded.

Female models are the main attraction in the show, for me. It's because of the grace and elegance that they show and not just because how beautiful they are its also how they carry themselves as models. You might want to watch the video.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

No Summer Vacation

So this time I got to finish my enrollment for this summer and yep, I got to take the subject that I once dropped last semester. I won't be going to any hot spots this summer but I'll be attending school to learn and it may be just a minor subject but its worth it. Being busy these days is tiring and to shake it off I got to go along with my mom my aunt and a friend of ours. We were going to a mall to buy for my materials and went to other places for the venue of a special event.

I just bought myself a comic book and it was entitled "Marvel Heroes" and I was happy enough to grab a copy of my own and very first comic book. The books that I had were tutorials on how to draw comics/manga. I was really planning to buy art books that teaches you how to paint efficiently. Maybe, it would be the next time I can earn some money from work.

So this August 8 I will be claiming my official study load at school and maybe have a time to relax a bit and enjoy. To all other people out there just enjoy the summer heat.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

This is not EMO.

I was really glad that my grades are not all going down. My grades you ask? Well these are the grades from the semester I just finished and was really happy that I passed most of the subjects that I enrolled. I was like..."Dude, look at my grades they're great and mostly passed but except the two!" (I sounded like I was happy about the dropped subjects.). I was really trying my best to make things up. My life is messy and been trying to do something extraordinary that not any normal person can do. I'm not really a lousy kid that just does not pay attention to college and give your parents headaches for not paying attention at class. Some even go to parties and get drunk, go wild, and yet tomorrow...hang over. Some even get bruises from parties that they go to due to alcohol and don't forget the misunderstandings.

I'm still relying on my Moms money to go to college but nowadays I'm finding a job and I think that would be home-based. A work that would likely be able to use my talent and earn from it and right now I've been browsing around some sites to find some company to apply for a part-time job. Before that "on the net job hunt syndrome", I am really eager to get a credit card to put it to use on payment processors and that is where will my money earned from work goes and later I will decide on where to spend it. Oh, being that I am an Anime fanatic and search engine addicted, and also an internet addict. Samurai Champloo was really a great Anime and I'll be making a blog post about it. I would not want to make a mess with that work, better make researches before posting some stuff about it.

These days are good days at least as I was watching some girl in the window. Yeah, you could think what I was thinking, I was really sight seeing. I am amazed by her beauty and really I have a deep appreciation for girls. Not to mention I was also with friends but was not really annoyed by them. I'll try to be more artistic and practice to hone my skills as an artist. Never been hyped up and pray that tomorrow will be a good day.